So anyways hope a certian person reads this....anyways im happily married and have a beutiful daughter coming into the world in july. Her name is Willow...thats the perfect name for my daughter....anyways other than that.....i am so happy im crying inside from all the pain. Deep down inside me theres a part of me that never moved on with the rest of me. you see before i got married there was a really special person inmy life and this person made me feel so good..although this person also made me feel bad too...continueing on...that person broke up with me and feel into a depression...i was away at school and i too became depressed....<Enter Tabitha> she comes into my life, she was interesting she was funny, energetic, she wasnt bad looking...plus she liked star wars..anyways during my stay at school i began to really fall for her. then i asked her out we dated and it was not any normal thing at this school where kids dated for a wekk or two then were done...no we lasted we really completed each other...she was my yin and i was her yang. despite that as the point...we were really happy and she made me feel wanted again...my heart was broken into millions of tiny pieces and it seems like it would take an eternity to repair. but she fix it she held it all back together with plenty of duct tape and super glue, this leads me to the next part in this story...i asked her to marry me....she said yes...so in the beutiful month of Agust we were married in W boylston infront of a old histoic church thingy....and here it is shes 27 weeks and our daughter Willow is due in july....anwyas recently i met back up with my first true love....and the moment i saw her that tiny part of me that forgot to move on woke up....i love my wife more than anything but when i saw her again i died inside, she was beutiful just like she alwasys was..and i was the only person who saw that...i was the only person who saw her beuty..we started talking and staying in contact via text messages and email and so i decied to see her again so i whent to my old work and after goind many times just in hope to run into her i got my chance and saw her......so again i would plan to see her...i would make up excuses why to leavfe the house bymeslf to se her..not for sex or to cheat but to talk to her..because her voice makes me feel complete hearing her talk to me makes me feel good, sso recently i met up with her and after so many problem im going through we spent the night in the parking lot just chatting up a storm...that night ment so much to me she had no idea..anways....after that night i aske dto borrow something of hers and she let me no hassle or anything...but then i got hassled i was cursed at by my wife and friends for borrowing this thing from her because she is my "EX" so i use the thing she lent to me and i took care of it and since i have been so busy working odd end hours trying to make sure i dont end up on the streets she emails me so violantly demands her property back and claims that im just acting and that i dont really care for her...but i really do...inside me is this old saved file that wants her with me so badly but since its so old i cant load it anymore.....this person ment the world to me and all i want is to see her happy and since everyone around her dissapered i want to make her happy but what can i do to do that.....how can i make her happy without lossing what keeps me happy....only if there was a way to copy myself and give it to her someone who cares about her all the time rather than just once and awhile or when ever he can...so for that i am so sorry because as long as your sad im sad. Face